"The Man I Want"

If you know me, you have probably noticed that I have various little notebooks that I use to write things down in...most often lists, but sometimes I just need paper and a pen to write down my thoughts.  Some people have their smart phones, or a tablet, or a laptop, and even though I would like a tablet to do some of these things on...nothing can really replace my pen and paper.

Recently, I've been trying to tidy up and simplify my life a little, and doing that means that I need to use up some of these half used notebooks.  The one I've recently been using for my To Do Lists, and Grocery Lists apparently had some very important thoughts written in it, over 2 years ago.  And apparently, writing things down can have extremely fortuitous results.

On July 6, 2010, I shared with the universe what I wanted in a man.  At the time, I was struggling, because what I wanted more than anything was a partner with whom to share this life and all the experiences that come along with it.  I was in the midst of trying to meet guys via eHarmony, rather unsuccessfully, and after the 10th first date, I had decided it was time to take a page from my Landmark Forum, and make a declaration: My Declaration of The Man I Want.  

As it turns out, the universe really is listening.  6 weeks later when I met my ex, I thought "Wow, the Universe is on top of this sh*t!"  Little did I know that the Universe does not work on our time table, and was really sitting there chuckling, saying "Oh, you poor, silly girl, no, no no...first I must give you a terrible trial to live through, so that I can be sure you will appreciate the gift I will give you later.  You see, you must earn this declaration that you seek."  And after enduring this trial, and picking myself up out of the sh*t puddle I had let myself fall into (with the varying aids of many, as well as myself), the Universe sent me my declaration...13 months later, to the date, in the form of my fiance.  

When I discovered this last night, it was a wonderful reminder that something, somewhere is listening...whether you believe in God or just the power of positive thinking...and as a result I will be writing a  lot more declarations in the future.

"The man I want has to be ballsier than me.  He has to be willing to open himself up to another human being and be himself fully.  He can't be easily scared away.  He has to be willing to be vulnerable and say 'Yes, this person here could hurt me, but they could also turn out to be the love of my life...and that is a risk I'm willing to take.' 

The man I want will be a strong man, a gentle man, a genuine man, and a gentleman.  He will have integrity.  He will always be honest as much as he can.  He will be loyal to himself and those that he loves.  His commitment and follow through will know no bounds.  

He will have a heart of gold - love animals, children and his country.  He will have a smile that lights the darkest room and his eyes will smile too while showing depth of both knowledge and character.  He will be young at heart, energetic in step and playful in manner.  He will value life, love, family and growth of self.

He will long for a partner to be his teammate in life; to support and be supported, to love and be loved unconditionally, and to laugh...most of all, to laugh."

~Me 7/6/2010

Many of you who know Geoffrey, will see in my description, that I was describing him almost as if I had already met him, when in reality I wouldn't meet him for another 13 months, after a series of very fortunate events that, had they gone any other way, I may not have met him.  The Universe is listening, and is benevolent.